552: Heroes

You’re the first person I’d call my hero

(normally I find things like that demeaning – why do we have to glorify other people when we are perfectly capable of being the people we want to be if we decide to work on it?)

and

you’re the person I want to grow up to be – very badly.

This isn’t a stupid crush. This is idolisation.

(which I used to find totally demeaning as well – nobody is as good as you think – or want to think – they are)

Haha now I know how the people on TV feel when they do something stupid in front of their heroes.

It’s all “SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTT” and “dammit!!!!!!!!!!1 why why why why?!??!?” and “OMG. HOW HORRIFICALLY MORONIC OF ME!!!!!!!!!!1 I AM SUCH AN IDIOT”

Because heroes are up there

and we are down here looking up at them in awe and admiration

and we would hate to think that our heroes think nothing of us

because we care bout what our heroes think

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I hate this whole hero thing.

Dammit dammit dammit.

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But then on the other hand it’s quite daunting to be somebody’s hero

‘cos heroes are generally tremendously nice and great people and they tend to be all modest and non-assuming

and you have to watch your words around your fangirls and fanboys because every little thing you say has the power to either make their entire day/week/month/year/life or crush it.

and it’s very tiring to have to watch the way you act because you do not want to be responsible for the way other people act and it’s crappy because you are their hero and you have a very very very great influence over them.

it is also very annoying as well because all you want to do is to live your life the way you want to and not how other people who admire you expect you to.

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Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

This sucks.

551: When I grow up…

… I want to be a Superhero with my trusty Stethoscope as my sidekick!

… Like Dr M House Wilson! (Yes! ‘cos now he reminds me of Dr House as well – diagnostically!)

I TELL YOU I spent 5 hours in the A & E with him today and he is like so geng! People keep passing the patient from one department to the other and in the end it eventually gets passed to him and he is indignant on the patient’s behalf! So what does he do?

He takes the time to sit down and slowly go through all the given information and try to figure out what’s wrong with the patient, he talks to the patient and he explains stuff to them, and then he examines them, and then he doesn’t move on to the next case until he has fully settled the case he is working on!

Then! He takes the time and trouble to rewrite the whole case report, summarising info from the entire patient file (I know how tedious this is ‘cos I sat through the whole writing process… I see only also sien already -_-) and then at the end he signs the report (his signature is like a stupid curved line only – I guess he sign properly also sign until sien already :D) and then he takes out his chop from his left pocket and then chops the report and then he moves on to the next case!

OH I tell you we talked alot about IMU as well (*ahem* yuan lai he become PBL faci before la! AND he was once in the SRC!)

Anyway yalah. I know what kind of doctor I want to become when I grow up liao.

My faith in the medical profession has been restored! There ARE genuinely good doctors walking the hospital halls~! :D

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Do you have any idea how obscenely expensive a cup of ice lemon tea is in Delifrance, UH?

It’s bloody RM 5.40 ok! Even with the staff/student discount! How outrageous!

(a sausage puff pastry is like RM 2.90 only la…. man damn paiseh :/)

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I tell you it is weird how a combination of 2 bad things (AssyFaceSenior + T.E.A. – from behind) can make such a good thing! LOL.

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OKLA I am going back to the hospital in like an hour’s time! Ehehehehehehe.

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I now realise the importance that comes with a white labcoat.

(I put mine on ONLY when the doc is with me and I take it off first thing after I leave the doc. Very scary ok the potential responsibilities that come with a labcoat.)

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Wheeeeeeeeee~! Random stuff to remember!

1. “Cocktail” for hyperK: calcium gluconate, dextrose, insulin
2. Bilateral pleural effusion: cardiac, renal, liver
3. Ovarian cancers = “silent killer”
4. ALP raised: liver, bone, but most people who present with raised ALP – cardiac and malignancy
5. Motor neuron disease: muscle fasciculations (lower! anterior horn and peripheral..?), (upper = central cord)
6. OCP! Important factor for malignancies!
7. Babinski’s sign!
8. The smell of Pseudomonas aeruginosa
9. Pericarditis = ST elevation in all leads
10. Always bring a piece of paper and stick all the stickers of the patients you see on it! In case “10 years later somebody calls you from Timbuktu” XD XD XD
11. D/D for cellulitis: DVT (and other stuff I kinda forgot -_-)

OKLA I HOPE THIS LIST GROWS WHEN I GET BACK HOME LATER~!!!!!!!!!

Waheyhey! Ward 4u here I come! XD