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I feel like I have unlocked the metaphoric Pandora’s box and unwittingly incurred the wrath of the monster within.
Haha.
How does one back out of previous commitments?
I’m desperate.
The people who know what I’m talking about probably think I’m exaggerating – I’m not.
I don’t know why the sudden panic and fear and dread but I know warning signs when I see them – the icy fist wrapped around my heart, the frantic darting of the eyes whenever I think about catastrophes waiting to unfold, the baited breath in anticipation of the next storm.
I can’t go on like this – 8 more months. I do not want to go through the rest of my life in IMU being jumpy and paranoid and having to watch how I act and filter what I say. I do not want to end up acting fidgety and uncomfortable.
Photoshop: the bane of my last 2 semesters in IMU.
The irony: the desperate (twice in the same post! surely this counts for something?) need to leave – and the gutlessness that chains me to my seat.
PS. I’m… disappearing for a while. Farewell! :)
This is my confession.
I cannot stop caring.
You have no idea how it feels.
Perhaps you do – we’re in the same rut after all.
The irony.
Being so close, yet not being able to be further.
The words have been said once, they’ve been said a million times.
I miss the you we used to know.
