This is going to be a whiny post and you have been given the option of wanting to read further.

(edit: I did not do this in the end because I did not end up really whining, lol)

(not that any of you who would be bothered by whiny posts would actually navigate away from this blog anyway, all you’d do is just to click “read more” and then bitch about how whiny I am to your friends. I don’t blame you. It’s what I would do anyway. HAHA.)

Aiyah now I no mood to whine liao -_-

I shall just be cryptic. HEHEHEHEH maniacal laugh.

I learnt today that things are often not as they seem, because there are some of us who like to dramatise things. The moral of the story is that we should always listen to all sides involved.

I learnt that, and I learnt that self-delusion is a very dangerous thing. Well – it isn’t dangerous until somebody pricks your bubble and you find out that what you’ve always thought was the truth is actually a lie.

(I am talking about this very candidly because of course I am not talking about myself. HAHA. Omg why am I so bitchy today?)

(I feel like gossip girl)

(eww.)

However I suppose I am happy for the people involved because I can foresee that this is a very stable bubble which won’t be popped in the near future… or ever, because things are working out for everyone.

Aiyah sien lah. Everybody should be subjected to the harsh cruelty of the truth now and again. It isn’t fair that some people get to live blissfully in their little fogs of delusion perpetually while the rest of us are left struggling and getting to grips with the real world.

Haha oklah I was just being bitter and I know that life is never fair, even when it is being unfair in my favour, lol. Actually nolah. I was just saying that for the sake of saying it because I thought it would sound cool.

Oh no what has this blog become. -_-

Anyway I am rambling because I am trying to avoid typing what I think I am about to type.

(this is not what I was going to type, by the way, I just found more things to distract myself with)

DID YOU KNOW THAT GRAND THEFT AUTO AND THE LEMMINGS WERE DEVELOPED IN DUNDEE!? I think that that is uber cool. FURTHERMORE, look at what I found on Wikipedia! This is about one of the gangs when there were gangs in GTA. Haha okla I don’t play la, Merv say now no more gangs wan

Loonies (symbol: winking smiley face) – They appear in the first area and they are quite crazy. Their gang car, the Dementia, is a green microcar with their mark painted on top and is probably named after their apparent insanity. Their small section of turf is in the vicinity of the city’s mental institution, named “SunnySide” after the Mental Institution in Montrose, Scotland, near Dundee, where the game was originally created. Their boss is Elmo. Elmo refers to the player as ‘Jumbo’. They use surgical green as their gang color.

HOW COOL IS THAT?! Hahah ok i’ll stop ‘cos i think i am starting to sound like the person sweeleen finds infinitely annoying. HAHAHAHA. Ahem. But really la! SunnySide hospital! Dementia! Surgical green!? Now i wanna play GTA2! Hahahaahahah.

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Ok no more hohumming because i am going to sleep.

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I have decided that i no longer want to give you (you as in somebody specific la, not the general public) the satisfaction of reading what I wanted to say. Can you sense the internal scuffle that is going on between the two halves of my psyche? I am fighting the urge so hard that I think that I am currently dissociated from my mind and I now no longer have control over what I am typing.

Part of me is thinking that this blog would be solid proof of my slow progression towards schizophrenia and mental unstability in general. I don’t like what is happening. This has been happening since I wrote that post being all catty over the grammatically incorrect english that belongs to other people.

Aiyah what you are reading is just a two-dimensional cardboard cutout of what is really going through my mind. Just be glad you aren’t here to witness my unwinding, like seriously.

Maybe it’s the full moon.

Maybe.

Good night.

PS. Happy Guy Fawkes’ Day everybody!